I have a friend...correction, I HAD a friend. Her name is Jennifer. I have lost her. I have no idea why. I am clueless as to what must have happened. I am saddened by this loss.
Jennifer and I met during our first week of college at Texas Tech University. She was one of a group of us that called ourselves "The Chicas." (I know...corny, but it was early 90s and we were a bit silly.) Anyway, Jennifer and the rest of us (a total of 5 girls) did a lot of things together. I was the prankster. (Hmmmm...that could explain my need to go BACK to college and actually graduate.) But, we had a good time. Once a semester, we dressed up and went out to eat at some restaurant that we could only afford once a semester. We called it "Chica-night.) Then, we would gather in one of our dorm-rooms, drink Dr Pepper, eat M&M's and have a sleep-over. Fun, huh?
I was the first to get married. All 4 of my friends were in my wedding. I was in 3 of the other 4 weddings. I was Jennifer's Matron-of-Honor. It was a nice wedding. In fact, I think it will be about 11 years this April.
I heard from Jennifer last when she was pregnant with her 2nd child. Suddenly, I never knew when she moved or had other children. It's like she fell off the face of the earth...except she didn't. :-(
I have "googled" her a few times. I know that she has moved. I know the hospital her hubby (a doctor) works in. I have sent her Christmas cards and birthday greetings. I even found a place where she works and sent an email through the "contact us" portion. I told them that I was an old friend and I was looking for her. I asked that they please let her know and have her email me. They said they would. That was about 2 months ago.
I'm having trouble saying goodbye to Jennifer, though it's been about 6 years since I heard from her. I don't want to seem like I'm stalking her. I guess I'll just stop trying to contact her. My mother says that friends are there for a season. I know the season has changed for us, but I didn't see any signs. My hubby thinks I should call and say, "What's up with all this?" I can't seem to grovel...nor can I be tacky to her.
No...I guess I'll just say goodbye. There is a chance, though slight, that she could read this. I've sent her the address when I practically begged her to write to me.
If you are reading this, Jennifer, thank you for a wonderful friendship. It was too short, but it was lovely. If you ever need a friend, you always have one in me. God bless you and your little family. Goodbye.
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