I'm not bitter. Really, I'm not. And, this post isn't something revealing to my hubby. He and I have talked it over and I know that I need to go back.
I don't mind, on the one hand. I'm called to be a teacher. Honestly, I am. I love teaching, and if I do say so myself, I'm a decent teacher. I enjoy middle school... which a lot of people don't. But, the people who don't enjoy teaching the age that I enjoy, well... they enjoy teaching the age I DON'T. :) However, if I need to teach 1st or 2nd grade for a year, I can.
I have had several ask me that. They know our situation... meaning they know what the 4 boys are involved in and that DH is gone 18 days a month.
It will be hard.
And that is what I dread, more than anything.
I fear I will not have enough.
Enough of me to help all of them.
My kids will be at 2 different campuses. That will be interesting.
Well, we have 2 houses that need to be paid off.
We aren't in dire straights, by any means.
No, we want to be able to help all 4 kids with cars and college.
We want to be able to have a bit more....er..... breathing room, I guess you could say.
Certainly, my income won't be completely disposable.
There will be more eating out. More convenience foods bought. A housekeeper. A new wardrobe. Possibly, some sort of after school child care will be needed... depending on the subject and which campus I teach on.
I'm sad because I really love staying home. But, I'm not bitter, nor am I "throwin' a hiss" because I know it is necessary. It is what I need to do.
Will I teach until retirement? I can't answer that. I don't even know how much longer I need to get retirement..... another 18 years? I know that isn't much, considering. Some teachers, who start just after graduation, and teach till retirement is what.... 40 years? YEESH! I can't imagine that.
BUT, that is a long ways away..... 1 year at a time.
I say that, not as a threat, but because I'm SO NERVOUS. You remember the "dreads" I posted up above? Well, if DH starts considering a loony bin for me.... well, I just hope I'm strong enough.
And please.... I know my situation isn't bad, nor is it absolutely unique. But, it is to me.
OK.... all that being said, I have adjusted my resolutions. If they stayed the same, they are not on here. I only posted the resolutions with changes.
Thanks for reading!
I will implement a family game or movie night once a month.
I will tackle one "big" project per week.... through June
I will bake more of our snacks and treats.... instead of buying them.... through June.
I will try a new recipe, once a time that DH is home..... *sigh* through June
I will probably NOT have a garden this year.
I will not start couponing.
I will post 2 blogs per week....through June, then probably go to about 1 per week
I will stick to a weekly menu and housekeeping plan.... through June, then we will be sure we eat every day
I aspire to reach my target weight BY June.... though I won't tell you what that is, or how much is needed to get there.
I will start having one-on-one time with each of the boys: once per month, per boy.
I'm a full-time mom to 4 wonderful boys ages 16, 14, 12 and 10. My sweet hubby, who happens to be my best friend, is a pilot. We have been married for 24 years, but have known each other since 1st grade. I was a middle school math teacher, but began staying home with the birth of my 4th child. After being home for 8 years, I went back into teaching. I currently teach 4th grade math.